Hi, guys —
I used to be a God nut, not in a bad way, but I wanted to be a priest. It ranked right there with astronaut! I lost it though. I stopped praying then just really didn't care what He thought.
Anyway, I got married and we had two children then my wife's doctor suggested that she get her tubes tied. I encouraged it and she wasn't against it but I feel responsible now, like if I had done the right thing and told her not to get her tubes tied, she wouldn't have done it. We've talked to the doctor about undoing it and they said that type cannot be undone.
At the time, it wasn't a problem, but now that I have found my way back to Church it is tearing me up. I watch all these people receiving Holy Communion knowing that I can never receive again. From my viewpoint, this is not something a simple Confession can fix. This was a permanent thing and so is the sin. This has been eating at me for years.
- Am I wrong to feel like this?
I pray that one way or another I get answers. Of all the things in life to miss, not receiving the Blessed Sacrament hurts the most. I miss it more than anything in this world.
Scott
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