Hi, guys —
I am a person that gets anxious quite easily so I often struggle with scrupulosity. I've also struggled with certain sins in the past that I am still tempted to commit.
Recently, I was tempted to commit this one sin and I put myself in a position that I already knew could lead me to sin. Thankfully, I did not go through with it.
However, I still felt bad about it and thought I should confess it. As I thought about it more, I came to the conclusion that this is just me being scrupulous again and I didn't actually commit the sin so I didn't confess this, went to Mass, and received Communion.
I still feel bad about it and now, I'm wondering if my previous Confession was not valid because I didn't mention this issue and have committed an even worse sin by receiving the Eucharist unworthily.
Now I feel like I'm abusing the sacrament of Confession and Communion because I received the Body of Christ and afterward thought:
I should confess that I received Communion because I knowingly put myself in a position that could lead to sin and didn't confess it, and I have disrespected the Eucharist by receiving it unworthily.
This is something I feel bad about and I do not want to disrespect the sacraments or put my soul in danger in any way.
Anxiety kicks in after this and I think of the stories from saints who knew people that went to Hell for not giving a proper Confession. In this case, I think of 1 Corinthians 11:27. I often don't receive Communion for venial sins, thinking they are worse than they really are, but in this case I thought, I can't keep avoiding Communion but I still felt bad.
- What are your thoughts?
- Is this scrupulosity or is this something I should go to Confession for?
Thank you.
Joseph
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