Hi, guys —
I'm 13 years old and Jewish. I have a lot of non-Jewish friends from school who live near me. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about converting to Catholicism. My friends have taken me to Church to show me what a Mass looks like; the two of them are altar boys. They even got me to help out once as an altar boy; I liked it a lot.
They showed me how to go to Confession; I try and go once a week. I like the fact that you get to confess your sins before God and get His forgiveness.
If my father finds out about my interest, he would blow a gasket (to say the least). About two weeks ago, I met the priest from the parish while walking on the street and he asked me if I would mind filling in as an altar boy, because one of the regular altar boys was very sick. I did, but in the process I found out that, after services have ended, the priest stands outside of the church and the altar boys have to stand with him. I did it only because the parish wasn't anywhere near my house.
Nevertheless, my dad has a client who has his business close by. He was there visiting him that day and saw me standing there all dressed up. Oh boy, did I get it when I got home. I told him that I wanted to convert, and he said that he would never ever allow it and that he would even send me to a military school or some kind of boarding school just to make sure I wouldn't have a Church there.
Now I truly believe in Jesus Christ, as my Lord and Savior, but my dad said if he catches me going to Church, or making the Sign of the Cross, he would break my hands.
I want to get baptized but I'm grounded until further notice. I can't leave the house except for school. He takes me there and picks me up on a regular basis.
Please help, I don't know what to do.
- Also, is it possible to go to Confession online?
I couldn't go for two weeks now and it bothers me.
A Wannabe Catholic,
Jacob
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