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Anonymous Whitney wrote:

Hi, guys —

Good evening,

Thank you for taking time to help me with my question.

Before I ask the question, I want to give you some background information about my situation. I am a faithful Catholic, and I have been married for 13 years. We have two children. I am going to therapy, but I want a Catholic perspective on this issue.

I have been unhappy with my husband for over a year now. I have realized that he will never be able to be who I need as a husband, and he has repeatedly told me this in his own words and actions. I’m at a loss because I am so angry at him and myself. I have asked him to go to therapy with me but he says, “Why can’t you just talk to me because that’s worked.” I also have been praying for God to make me a widow for over a year.

Here's my question.

  • What can I do?
  • Is it wrong for me to pray to God to make me a widow?

Thanks,

Whitney
  { Since I'm struggling with marital issues, Is it wrong for me to pray to God to make me a widow? }

Eric replied:

Dear Whitney,

It sounds like you are having an extremely tough time. I am not schooled in marriage counseling, I am not even married, but it's important to remember that God does not permit any evil that he can't draw good out of. Use this as an opportunity to offer your sufferings to God for your own sanctification. Perhaps God is trying to get through to you. Open your heart more deeply to him so that he can come in.

  • Are you praying for your husband, I mean for his salvation and sanctification?

Love is willing the good of the other. As a Christian, you are called to love all people, and as a wife, you are called to love your husband. Even if he's your enemy, Christ bid us to pray for our enemies as well, so you have no excuse not to pray for his good. If you don't love him, pray for the grace to love him. (I don't mean you have to be affectionate or like him; I mean you have to have unconditional Christian love for him.) 

If you are looking for a Catholic "out" here, there isn't one. God is permitting this for a reason. I don't know what it is that your husband lacks that you need, but perhaps you can ask the Lord to supply it for you himself. Maybe God is calling you more deeply to himself. Try responding to that call. Open yourself entirely to God and humble yourself before him.

Also try forgiveness. You cannot be saved if you do not forgive others. Forgive him for not being the husband you expected, forgive yourself for your mistakes, forgive God for putting you through this. Forgive him every time you feel anger towards him. Forgiveness doesn't mean glossing over an injustice, it doesn't mean you have to have good or neutral feelings toward the person, but it means you have to be willing to let go of resentment and the desire to have God punish the person for what they did. 

Sometimes we have to see bottom before God can work with us. It sounds like you're there. Let God work in your life. Bring your problems to him. Yell at him if you must but be honest with him. Stop trying to control your life and let God work through you.

Here are a few readings from saints and other holy men that you may find helpful:

The most difficult thing of all is to accept the will of God, no matter what happens, that is, both in those things which are agreeable to us and in things which are not. In good times even sinners know how to unite themselves with the will of God, but the saints unite themselves with God’s will even in those things which are disagreeable and displeasing to them. It is here that the quality of our love of God is demonstrated. Father John of Avila said that one “Blessed be God” when things are going badly is worth more than a thousand expressions of thanks when things are going as we would wish them to.

What is more, we should unite ourselves to the will of God not only in those unpleasant things which he permits, such as sickness, desolation of spirit, poverty, the death of loved ones, and so on, but also in those things which come to us through other human beings—contempt, loss of our good name, injustice, robbery, and all kinds of persecutions. On such occasions when we are offended by someone in our reputation, our sense of honor, or our material goods, it is important to realize that although God does not will the sin of the one who injures us, he does, nevertheless, will that we should learn humility, poverty, and self-denial from these experiences.

It is certain and a matter of faith that everything that happens in the world happens in accordance with the will of God.

“I am the LORD, there is no other; I form the light, and create the darkness, I make well-being and create woe; I, the LORD, do all these things” (Isaiah 45:6–7).

From the Lord, then, come all good things and all things that are evil—that is, those things which are not to our liking and which we falsely call evil, since, in fact, they can be blessings for us when we accept them from God’s hands.

“If evil befalls a city, has not the LORD caused it?” says the prophet Amos (Amos 3:6).

Earlier, the wise man said,

“Good and evil, life and death, poverty and riches, are from the LORD”

(Sirach 11:14).

It is true, as I have said, that when someone unjustly offends you, God does not will that person’s sin nor share in the malice; but it is also true that God is at work through the act by which you are persecuted or robbed or injured. In this particular sense, your suffering is in accordance with the will of God and comes to you from his hands.

So the Lord told David that the injuries he would receive at the hands of Absalom (2 Samuel 12:11) would come from the Lord as a punishment for his sins. In the same way he told the Hebrews that, in punishment for their sins, he would send the Assyrians to ravage and ruin them:

“Woe to Assyria! My rod in anger, /my staff in wrath. Against an impious nation I send him, and against a people under my wrath I order him to seize plunder, carry off loot” (Isaiah 10:5–6).

St. Augustine comments that the impiety of the Assyrians became the sword of God. In other words, God made use of their impiety as a sword to punish the Hebrews. And Jesus himself said that his Passion and death did not so much come to him from human beings as from his Father:

“Shall I not drink the cup that the Father gave me?”

(John 18:11).

When the messenger (who is said to have been the devil) came to tell Job that the Sabeans had carried off all his goods and had killed his sons,

  • What did the holy man say?

“The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away” (Job 1:21). He did not say: “The Lord gave me sons and property and the Sabeans have taken them from me.”

This was because he well knew that this loss was willed by God and so he adds:

“It has happened as it pleased the Lord, praised be the name of the Lord.”

We should not, therefore, think of our troubles as happening by chance or simply through the malice of others, but rather should we be convinced that whatever happens to us is in accordance with God’s will.

“Know that whatever happens to you contrary to your wishes does not happen contrary to the wishes of God,” said St. Augustine.

The Christian martyrs Epictetus and Athio, when the tyrant had tortured them with iron hooks and burned them with flaming torches, said nothing other than:

“Lord, may your will be done in us.”

And when they came to the place of execution, they exclaimed for all to hear,

“Eternal God, be praised: Your will is fully accomplished in us.”

Cesarius relates how a certain member of a religious community, without seeming at all.
different from his companions, had in fact reached such a high degree of holiness that he healed the sick simply with a touch of his garments. Amazed at this, his superior asked him one day how he could perform such miracles, seeing that his life was no more exemplary that that of the others. The religious replied that he too was amazed and could not explain it. But when the abbot asked him what his particular devotions were, he replied that he did little or nothing other than taking great care always to do only what God willed. He explained that the Lord had given him the grace of abandoning his own will to the will of God. “I do not get carried away in good times,” he went on to explain, “nor do I give up when times are hard, because I accept all things as coming from the hands of God. All my prayers are for this, that his will be done in me.”

“So you felt no resentment at the harm that was done to us the other day,” the abbot further enquired,

  • “When our enemies took away our property and set fire to the places where we keep our corn and cattle?”

“No, Father,” the monk replied, “in fact, I gave thanks to God for it, as I always do on such occasions, knowing that God does everything or allows it to happen for his own glory and for our good, and so I am content with whatever happens.” In the light of this the abbot, recognizing in this man such great conformity to the will of God, was not at all surprised that he was able to perform such miracles.

Those who do as this man did not only become saints, but they already enjoy here on earth the eternal peace which is the privilege of the blessed. Alphonsus the Great of Aragon, when once asked whom, he considered the happiest people in the world, replied:

“Those who abandon themselves to the will of God and accept everything that happens, good or bad, as coming from his hands.”

“We know that all things work for good for those who love God”

(Romans 8:28)

—  De Liguori, Alphonsus, “Conformity to the Will of God,” in Alphonsus de Liguori: Selected Writings, ed. by Frederick M. Jones and Bernard McGinn, trans. by Martin McKeever, The Classics of Western Spirituality (New York; Mahwah, NJ: Paulist Press, 1999), pp. 73–75

Nothing that happens to us is contrary to the will of Providence, and everything that is sent us by God is for our good and the salvation of our soul. Even if it does not seem helpful at the moment, we shall understand later on that it was willed so by God, and that it is not what we ourselves wish that is always useful to us. God sends trials out of his Mercy, so that after we have suffered, we may be crowned by Him. Without temptation it is impossible to receive a crown. This is why we should thank God for these sufferings, as our Benefactor and Saviour.

— Nilus Sorsky

“No matter what bitterness has befallen you, no matter what unpleasantness has happened to you, say, “I shall endure this for Jesus Christ!” and it will be easier for you. For the name of Jesus Christ is powerful. Through it all unpleasantness is calmed, and demons disappear. Your disappointments will also be calmed, and your pusillanimity will be quieted.”

Anthony of Optina

 
Eric

Whitney replied:

Hi, Eric —

Good morning,

Thank you for your thorough e-mail. I really appreciate the time and thoughtfulness in your response. Please give me a few days to process what you've said, and I would really like to write you back if you're OK with this.

God bless you,

Whitney

Eric replied:

Whitney,

I'd be happy to answer follow-up questions! I'm glad you received the e-mail well, and I really and sincerely appreciate the feedback. (Usually, I get no feedback at all; I can't tell if I've ticked someone off or if they've benefited.) Here are a few more thoughts:

It seems to me your current prayer is, effectively, a curse. You are cursing your husband, for all intents and purposes. Maybe putting it those stark terms will help you reconsider.

I'd also encourage you, as difficult as it is, to find things to give thanks to God for your husband for. Perhaps you can start with your children: Presumably you appreciate your children, and he gave them to you. Perhaps he did a good job, or at least a praiseworthy job, of helping raise them. You don't say how long you've been married, but hopefully there are positive things he did prior to a year ago that you can be grateful for. It would be most helpful to find things daily (at the end of the day) to be grateful for. It's hard to imagine a relationship so toxic that you can't find things to be grateful for: him fixing you a cup of coffee, him putting his dishes in the dishwasher, him sharing his income with you or the fact he has a job, his attention to you, his protection of you and your children, kind words from him, signs of affection, whatever it may be.

Even if you have to scrape the bottom of the barrel ("I am grateful he does not use physical violence" [P.S. If he does that's a different story: flee to safety!]), start with that (it will get easier as you form a habit). I especially encourage you to offer these thanksgivings at Mass; "Eucharist" means "thanksgiving" in Greek (in turn it is a Greek portmanteau of "good" and "grace" or "gift"), and it is in the Eucharist that we as Catholics offer thanks to God for the good gifts God has given us. It's the original "Thanksgiving"!

Give it all over to the Lord; "cast your cares on him, for he cares for you."

(1 Peter 5:7)

and

". . .we do not lose heart. Though our outer man is wasting away, our inner man is being renewed every day. For this slight momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, because we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen; for the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."

(2 Corinthians 4:16–18)

Eric

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