Hi, guys —
I am 20 years old, studying law in the best university in the country.
Of late, I am having a desire to be a rich person so that I can have many kids and give them good Catholic values so that many more souls would go to Heaven.
Alternatively, if me and my future wife couldn't have kids, due to biological reasons, then I am thinking of adopting a lot of kids, especially differently abled kids, or give a lot of wealth to charity. But certainly not use this money for luxury. (I am single and will obviously tell my future wife about this plan.)
The problem is this desire is making me anxious. Before one year I never had such thought of earning a lot. I wanted to do some public/national service even if it meant low pay. I used to study well during those years.
Now after the lock down, my grades have fallen and it seems difficult to get a high-earning corporate job. Hence, this desire for earning a lot of money is causing some sort of anxiety or discomfort. It might be the work of the enemy or simply God pulling me out of my comfort zone. I don't know if this thought is coming from the devil or from God.
- Is this a spiritually sound Catholic desire?
- Is it compatible with Catholic teaching?
- Should I,
- resist this desire, or
- pray for its fulfillment and make decisions accordingly?
I know it's not an easy question but any help would be appreciated.
Jerrin
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